Sunday, May 23, 2010

Your face saving promises, whispered like prayers.

My birthday is coming up next month and all I really want is the boy I like to be with me and to get a tattoo done. But I'm still undecided on what I want to get & where, I know I want something small but there is so many designs to choose from. I've been so happy the last week, It's kind of been intense but I won't tell you why!

Friday night was strange and so much happened, I got very drunk and ended up nursing a bad hangover on the following Saturday. Though I'm in a complete state of happiness, I feel like something is wrong at the same time, I know the choices i'm making are self destructive but I can't stop, I'm hungry for it all the time. I don't see what's wrong with it but I know my mother does and If I told others they would be worried about me too. I'm not sure if needing it so much is normal or even why I need it.

I can't stop thinking about this new guy I've been seeing, and I know he feels similar. I've never felt so connected to someone this way before, and it just was so instant from the first time we met. Maybe it's just pure lust, either way he's on my mind every day.

Him: You make me smile...I'm so glad I found you.

songs currently on repeat:
Too Little, Too Late - Metric
Plug in Baby - Muse
Opus 34 - Dustin O'Halloran
Love Lockdown - Kanye West


  1. I desperately want to get a tattoo done! Do you have any idea about yours?

    I wish we could talk more, I want to hear everything about this boy of yours. This makes me sort of wish I had someone too.