I am covered in skin, no one gets to come in.

I know in the past I've been accused of being attention seeking and I've denied it, And I still deny it then because in those instances I wasn't being attention seeking, I was out of control because that's how I am right now. But I've realized in some other ways I do seek attention because I have the need to feel loved or wanted, I do it in subtle ways though. For instance I may wear more revealing clothes sometimes so I get a response from males.

'The anger and rejection that people with BPD display mean they are sometimes labeled as ‘bad,‘ ‘manipulative’ or ’attention-seeking’. While things they do may at times lead to confusion, distress or inconvenience for other people, it should be remembered that this behaviour results from feelings of fear, loneliness, desperation, or hopelessness associated with BPD. '

Lately it's been so cold, and this has not helped my mood one bit. Aside from the weather, I feel much more happier on a whole, I'm not cooped up in my dark bedroom like before as much and I'm seeing friends more. But i'm not holding my hopes up, things tend to go backwards for me when I least expect them too.


songs on high repetition:
† Tide is high - Blondie
† Misery - Maroon Five
† Storms - Fleetwood Mac
† Tourniquet - Rasputina